Looking back now
I didn't know
What it was supposed to be
And and it's like raising kids man
If you weren't raised
They don't know
How to raise you know
I just did the best
That I could with them
Because they know
Fuckin' well I love them
But I didn't do
The best I could
I didn't know
What the fuck
I was doing I didn't
I will never forget
Watching my mother
Get put in a straightjacket
And taken out of my home
When I was only
Seven years old
She was diagnosed
With Dementia praecox
And put in a mental institution
Leaving my daddy alone
With me and my little brothеr Lloyd
I later had an evil stepmothеr
Who further cemented the idea
That I didn't need a mother
Growing up without one
Had long lasting impressions
I didn't fully understand
Until much later in life
It bled into my relationships
With family and those
I had became romantically involved with
Whenever I got too close
To a woman
I would cut her off
Part of that was vindictive
And partially based on fear
But it was also totally subconsious
Looking back is a bitch innit