I'm gettin' older
I think I'm agin' well
I wish someone had told me
I'd be doin' this by myself
There's reasons that I'm thankful
There's a lot I'm grateful for
But it's different
When a stranger's always
Waitin' at your door
Which is ironic 'cause the strangers
Seem to want me more
Than anyone before
Too bad they're usually deranged
Last week I realized
I crave pity
When I retell a story
I make everything sound worse
Can't shake the feeling
That I'm just bad at healing
And maybe that's the reason
Every sentence sounds rehearsed
Which is ironic
Because when I wasn't honest
I was still bein' ignored
Now we're estranged
Things I once enjoyed
Just keep me employed now
Things I'm longing for
Someday I'll be bored of
It's so weird
That we care
So much until we don't
I'm gettin' older
I've got more on my shoulders
But I'm gettin' better at admitting
When I'm wrong
I'm happier than ever at least
That's my endeavor
To keep myself together
And prioritize my pleasure
'cause to be honest
I just wished the word I promised
Would depend on
What I'm givin'
To be abused mm
Things I once enjoyed
Just keep me employed now
Things I'm longing for mm
Someday I'll be bored of
It's so weird
That we care so much
Until we don't
But next week
I hope I'm somewhere laughin'
For anybody asking
I promise I'll be fine
I've had some trauma
Did things I didn't wanna
Was too afraid to tell ya
But now I think it's time