Drownin' in the Blue Nile
He sent me Downtown Lights
I hadn't heard it in a while
My boredom's bone deep
This cage was once just fine
Am I allowed to cry
I dream of crackin' locks
Throwin' my life to the wolves
Or the ocean rocks
Crashin' into him tonight, he's a paradox
I'm seeing visions
Am I bad or mad or wise
What if he's written Mine
On my upper thigh only in my mind
I'm slipping
Fallin' back into the hedge maze
Oh, what a way to die
I keep recalling things we never did
Messy top lip kiss
How I long for our trips
Without ever touchin' his skin
How can I be guilty as sin
I keep these longings locked
In lowеrcase inside a vault
Someonе told me
There's no such thing as bad thoughts
Only your actions talk
These fatal fantasies
Giving way to labored breath
Takin' all of me
We've already done it in my head
If it's make-believe
Why does it feel like a vow
We'll both uphold somehow
What if he's written Mine
On my upper thigh only in my mind
I'm slipping
Fallin' back into the hedge maze
Oh, what a way to die
My bed sheets are ablaze
I've screamed his name
Buildin' up like waves crashin' over my grave
Without ever touchin' his skin
How can I be guilty as sin
What if I roll the stone away
They're gonna crucify me anyway
What if the way you hold me
Is actually what's holy
If long-suffering propriety
Is what they want from me
They don't know
How you've haunted me so stunningly
I choose you and me religiously
What if he's written Mine
On my upper thigh only in my mind
I'm slipping
Fallin' back into the hedge maze
Oh, what a way to die
I keep recalling things we never did
Messy top lip kiss
How I long for our trips
Without ever touchin' his skin
How can I be guilty as sin
He sent me Downtown Lights
I hadn't heard it in a while
Am I allowed to cry