I seek you out, flay you alive
One more word and you won't survive
I didn't leave a letter on my desk
Saying goodbye
People think I left
Even though I'm still here
Pressure made its way
Through my chest to my heart
Like a spark
Does fireworks on the new year
Burning me alive life imitates art
There are flames on my arms
Tattooed right here
Bury me alive disappear underground
Where they found me
Before I ever had this career
I seek you out, flay you alive
One more word and you won't survive
And I'm not scared of your stolen power
I see right through you any hour
I'm staring at a diamond
Knowing that they are forever
Even if my body
Isn't still around to wear 'em
Seats are only full at funerals
And not the weddings
Only vows I made
The other person couldn't share 'em
Know that I'm a monster
Like the one under the bedding
Afraid of having kids
I'm scared I'll be just like my parents
These were my decisions
Now this cross I gotta wear it
Self-inflicting these incisions
Here I can no longer bear it
I won't soothe your pain
I won't ease your strain
Look
I'm sick of sitting inside of this room
'Cause every thought I got's negative
I'm sick of not being able to sleep
And relying only on a sedative
I'm sick of hearing another voice
Telling me what to do in my head again
Psychiatrist said he's imaginary
But I know he's real
If I said he is
Fighting with myself
So I can't help that I'm competitive
This movie is my life
But I still remain uncredited
I don't care how big I get
I still remain unedited
I built this from the ground up
Y'all just living it
Long hair
Don't care I'm not trimming it
Fuck vanity
Caught up in an image made by the internet
My insanity's imminent
All sharks I'm swimming with
What's hell, I've been in it
My happiness is bankrupt
But my credit card's unlimited
I seek you out
Find you just to remind you
That when you're born an anomaly
Nowadays
It's probably gonna be harder to find you
Don't leave the past behind you
Don't forget all of the fans who ride
Go back and open up the catalog
To my first songs that rewind you
Remember the things that drive you
Remember the feeling of being alone
In a home as a kid every night
With the struggle of having nobody to cry to
Growing up and having trust issues
Now everyone I say bye to
Looking up at the sky
I found a destination to fly to