My double vision
Is only amplifyin' everythin' he isn't
'Til I feel less attached and bored to death
But listen
It's no one's fault
It's just my terrible condition
And I've been thinking
If I move out this year
I'll feel my parents slipping
Away and also
I'm just scared of that commitment
I really think
Sometimes there's somethin' that I'm missing
Oh, I know
Spiralin' is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult
And oh, I hope
I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult
To name this feeling
Would take a hundred thousand years
Some kind of grieving
But over what I never had
So I've been speaking
To my therapist
I call her every weekend
I meant to tell you
How I've hated how we left things
When it fell through
'Cause you were everythin' to me
Where did you run to
Was it something
That I said that colored you blue
Oh, I know
Spiralin' is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult
And oh, I hope
I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult
Difficult
Difficult
I've been drinking
And stayin' up too late, relivin' bad decisions
I thought eventually
My ranting here would fix it
I really think
Sometimes there's somethin' that I'm missin'
Oh, I know
Spiralin' is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult
And oh, I hope
I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult
Oh, I know
Spiralin' is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult
And oh, I hope
I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult